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我坐在刚刚装修好的自家阳台上，看着大街上熙熙攘攘过往的路人。每个人都心怀欲望而活着，他们忙碌又迷茫，像蚂蚁一样辛劳。但这时候我如果从窗台扔下几捆钞票，瞬间就能打破这和谐的画面。人类是战胜不了自己的欲望的，在无尽的诱惑面前，他们可以放弃尊严，放弃矜持，像狗一样趴在地上乞讨，除非诱惑还不够大。
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6 B J- I: z% z6 i 我是商人家庭，从小的耳濡目染，让我在年纪尚小的时候就明白了这赤裸裸的人性。但小时候的我反感现实生活，向往美好的爱情，渴望放浪不羁的青春。家里的环境给了我不错的基础，使得整个青年时期一帆风顺，现在想想，这何尝不是对成长的一种误解。我不知道失败是如何滋味，更无法感受饥寒交迫的贫困。回想过去两年，在极短的时间里，命运把积攒了快30年的难题和盘托出，没有任何情面的直接拍打在我脸上。试问苍天饶过谁？这是我必将经历的灾难。/ C- S4 s% ^! c6 t! N4 T- i
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两年前，我是一个刚刚走出大学校门一年多的有为青年，27岁，经管类硕士。对世界充满了野心，激情一直在我心里徐徐燃烧。辅以父辈的关系铺垫，和不错的个人履历。我的职业道路节节直上，左右逢源，如鱼得水。我深谙人际关系之道，父亲对我的谆谆教诲逐一得到验证。2012年初，我已经是当地小有名气的公司项目经理，负责刚刚开展的几个重点项目。机会就像安排好的一样，陆续在我面前展开。虽然在这个过程中偶有迷茫，但我心里很清楚，这是很多人毕生都在追求的事业。在有几次加班到深夜，我一个人站在办公室的落地窗前，看着脚下万家灯火，和缓缓流动的湘江水。那一瞬间我发现自己身上没有一个特别值得回味的故事，一切都水到渠成，一路高歌。竟然有小小的失落感，我还在不知足些什么呢？这些在脑海里转瞬即逝的失落，就像稻草，一根一根，生根发芽。
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3 l d' M' {" d/ Q& O6 n 婚后我们开始了甜蜜的蜜月旅行，这是我走得最远的一次，我们去了12个国家，我感受到前所未有的自由。这个世界这么大，这么多有趣的人和事，强烈的好奇心得到了空前的满足。开始向往更大的世界，更精彩的人生，原来自己一直以为的精彩，放在更大的城市不过是过江之鲫。我走在人头攒动的纽约街头，游荡在纸醉金迷的兰桂坊，在海滩上奔跑，在迪拜的摩天大楼里思考人生。我感受到了金钱的力量，我以前没感受到只是因为我的视角局限。我不知道怎么花，在我自己的城市，我有中上豪宅，有30W+的车，我还有暧昧着的漂亮姑娘们，以及小有成就的事业。我明白了人活着就是要有欲望，如果没有了欲望，我们还在为什么而活呢？之所以失落是因为我填满了自己当时的欲望，不知道还要去追求些什么。那一刻我的欲望放大了，我想拥有更多。
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